2015.01.30: my heart’s desire

Find your delight in the LORD
who will give you your heart’s desire. Ps 37:4

And when the grain is ripe, he wields the sickle at once, for the harvest has come. Mk 4:29

in darkness my day ended
fitful was my sleep
restless i awoke
in darkness still

alarms sounded in my mind
echoing panic in the dark
sudden despair seized my soul
fear of never seeing the light

i tried to rise but couldn’t
planted in the ground was i
armless i raised my heart to You
rooted in your love i cried

at daybreak you came walking
teardrops fell on my stalk
above the sound of the sickle i hear
“The Kingdom of God has come”

and my heart sang out
with delight in the LORD
thankful for my heart’s desire
a small seed in the Kingdom of God

2015.01.20: taste and see the goodness

As Jesus was passing through a field of grain on the sabbath,
his disciples began to make a path while picking the heads of grain. — Mk 2:23

here i am, little lamb
don’t be so bewildered
you haven’t lost me
you don’t have to chase me all over
just look inside your heart
i am always with you

yes they have all gone
my disciples and the Pharisees
you can see the paths they left behind
come sit down with me
if only for a little while longer

taste and see the goodness of the grain
in this moment it is just a seed
some will be made into bread one day
others: another generation of fields

see hear smell taste touch feel
the goodness of this moment
it will feed you today
it can be the seed for others

here i am, little lamb
i am with you always
just look inside your heart

2015.01.12: the call

Jesus said to them, “Come after me, and I will make you fishers of men.” Mk 1:17

don’t despair little seed
the nothingness you feel
is the void before the beginning

don’t despair little seed
the darkness you see
is the womb of your Mother

don’t despair little seed
the silence you hear
is the stillness after yes

don’t despair little seed
you answered the call
your time is coming